Crimson Guitar Blog

In the middle of university, mental health diagnosis schizophrenia affective disorder… hospitalized five times throughout twenties, once for a full year in which my cat died three days before my release… up and down battle with medications causing a side-effect of Akasthisia lasting ten years… the worst pain of my life. You can not sit still it feels like you are licking a battery and burning on the insides permanently! At the same time, I couldn’t do my favourite thing in the whole world – soccer – cause i had toenail infections and injury, which would last 5 years… the dr treatments once monthly were excruciatingly painful during cleanings…

Kicked out and let back into University on probation and accessibility as a result. Met new friends; very comforting and memorable! Taught me new things and intellectual!!! Went on walks through frozen, snowy ravines with my German Shepherd :). Played hockey, soccer or worked out everday growing up until the age of thirty! Practiced daily Spanish guitar, which was comforting, and i shared clips with girls and friends 🧡.

Eventually graduated – engaged with friends at soccer, poker, chess and stock clubs. Did a full-year design project – very valuable and fun!! Worked on my own guitar, poker, and chess skills and ran my own finances stock account for years… read news and positive corners of social media! Read a ton of helpful non-fiction books! Shared my favourite things into document uploads or onto youtube 🙂